Onward

What a silly time to be me, haha. Got back into school for a cup of coffee, kicked ass and was able to leave after 3 months after "jobbing out."

The last six months have again seen major change in my life, and I don't know where life is taking me next, but for the first time in a while there's calm. It's kind of like a plateau that I have hit. Got my foot in the door and landed a sweet sales job at a radio station in Toronto.

It took me some time out of the program to get my shit together and allow me to come back physically and mentally better than before.

I'm in a better place but it's not without its sacrifices. Lost a few soldiers along the way. Lost some friends that had been with me for years. My fault? Their fault? Hmm.. It's complicated. And when the hell isn't it? But I hold no hate toward anyone. Life's too short to hate. And I know that at least one of my friends that I lost along the way, even though we're not BFF's or anything like that, I know I can go to him should I ever need to. It's a weird thing. And I would do the same for him.

But on the flip-side of this whole deal, I've met some pretty cool cats. Cats that I know will be friends of mine for years to come. It's a cool feeling to know I'm building a back support. And of course that goes both ways -- I've helped where I could.

So things aren't bad, they're not terribly good, but for now everything's neutral. I guess I'm in that state where I'm waiting for the chips to fall where they may.

I'm optimistic everything will turn out for the better.

And hey, if the sun can come out every now and again then there's no reason to crack a smile here and then.

Be well, everyone.